How I Overcame Alcohol and Disease

Why Quitting Alcohol Worked For Me

I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m attempting to create essays about topics for which I have little genuine enthusiasm. Alternatively, my imagination hasn’t caught up with my competence yet. In order to get around this, I’m going to write more about the lessons I’ve discovered throughout my life. If I can assist even one person in the process, my goal will have been accomplished.

o, what will we be talking about today? How about “Why my experience of giving up alcohol worked”? Risky subject, and as soon as I typed those words, I felt sick to my stomach, like a rush of shame that told my brain to stop talking so much because people would start to perceive you differently.

Shame and alcohol

That’s what I discovered, anyway. Give up worrying about what others are attempting to convey to you. Telling your story is not a source of shame. particularly when it’s to our closest confidants, family members, friends, or anybody else. Is a friend truly your friend if you can’t even trust them enough to share your testimony?

I kept the shame of letting alcohol take over and have an impact on my life to myself. I didn’t want anyone to know that having a few drinks to relieve my tension and anxiety at the end of a long, exhausting, and bothersome workday was the only thing that would make me happy. Keeping this inside will just feed anxiety-inducing negative thoughts.

I completely recognize now that each person is unique. Perhaps you won’t have any negative effects if you consume a couple each day. I am narrating my own story. I carried it out for 20 years. It wasn’t having any side effects, I told myself. “I wasn’t having hangovers, so the two to four drinks a day wasn’t enough to have a holding effect,” and “the side effects were minimal.”

We Need Awareness

However, the truth is that drinking was essentially robbing me of my awareness. my ability to perceive reality as it truly is. the consciousness of the beauty of a sunset or sunrise. the understanding of collaborating with family members to solve issues, etc.

When drinking becomes your go-to answer for everything, there are a lot of things you miss out on. To put things into perspective, I was only consuming two to four drinks every day. But “per day” is the crucial phrase. Each and every day. And every day both prior to and following that. One day, something inside of me began to shift until it ultimately came to an abrupt stop. I won’t get into the details, but it was sufficient for me to resign from my position suddenly, and it left me unsatisfied.

You already know this if you’ve read my website’s “about” page. I was battling an uncommon inflammatory skin condition known as H.S. Not even my worst enemy is something I would wish upon, this kind of illness. I continue to participate in the Facebook support group primarily in order to assist others when I can, but it hurts to read about the progression of the suffering that people are going through.

I won’t go into the specifics, but know that they are constantly concerned with anticipating the next instance of discomfort or shame and fret about it happening. Many of them fear judgment from others and are too embarrassed or afraid to inform even those closest to them. Or perhaps people just won’t get it. In addition, I had to deal with the symptoms of a pilonidal cyst that had started to resurface following surgery a few years prior. In my life, nothing was functioning.

Change Your Paradigm

My paradigm had to shift, and it had to shift fast. Nevertheless, I couldn’t help but think, “This is just life; screw it; let’s have another drink.” Then, one day, while just exploring YouTube’s rabbit hole, I came into a person who I now know as a “Coach.”

To be honest, I can’t even remember what I was looking for—I was just trying to kill time and take my mind off of my problems. However, the remarks had impact. I tried to go away, but I was being drawn in for reasons I didn’t understand at the time. It seemed like something was opening up on the inside and every phrase had resonance.

Phrases like “We were put here to become the King/Queen of our thing,” “Live in a state of perpetual joy,” “When you submit to his authority, your assignment must submit to you,” “Empowered Expectations,” and “If life is hard, then money is easy” are examples of phrases that encourage optimism.

I’ll be the first to admit that I had my doubts. My ability to think analytically has helped me succeed in a number of previous undertakings. But I haven’t always been able to express that ability clearly.

However, something always drew me back when I ventured off. comparable to that of a magnet in a similar way. The phrases represented the north-seeking pole aligning itself with me, and I was the south pole.

I watched, then rewatched, and then watched again until I finally understood why I was unable to look away. My purpose was there, in the midst, somewhere among these words and realities. To tell the truth, I was afraid. I’m 41 years old, and it can be a little unsettling when you’re 41 and your mission is only now being revealed to you. Everything that has happened in the past suddenly comes crashing down like a tidal wave that wants to engulf you in the surf.

Additionally, I began to feel guilty for not living my life to the fullest. Later on, I came to understand that it makes no difference when you begin leading a moral life—as long as you take advantage of the opportunities that come your way. I was terribly thankful when, over time, I realized that the guilt and humiliation I was experiencing was normal and not just natural. arriving with the realization that, while these kinds of emotions are common, we shouldn’t let them consume us.

Find Your Purpose

For the time being, I am confident that whatever guilt I may feel will pass fast. I’m over my fear of embarrassment. It serves no function in my life now. The pilonidal cyst’s unset symptoms essentially vanished. And the horrifyingly crippling and embarrassing symptoms of H.S. have significantly decreased. I don’t have to worry about what the following step will reveal every single second of the day anymore.

How will it all come together in the end? What is it that, in a period of only a few weeks, altered my life? I did not seek out the Kingdom of God, but I did find it. At my lowest point, I was found by his light. I confessed my sins and trusted in Jesus Christ as my Savior. I am now experiencing the work of the Holy Ghost. I yielded to God’s authority. I discovered my purpose there, and I have since turned in my homework. I now see that he is fortifying me for the future with every hardship I face. I also understand that even in the midst of that trial, my unending happiness outweighs my sadness. And I pray and hope that you discover that too.

The “Free” coaching video was sourced from YouTube, as previously noted. An individual named Myron Golden was a lifelong coach. A month ago, I had never heard of him. But he brought me to Joy and the word, and he transformed my life. Joy that I might not have discovered otherwise. Visit my website, where I’ve categorized a few of his videos strategically, or check out his stuff on YouTube.

Find Your Purpose